I know I'm a couple of days late writing about my feelings and hopes for the New Year, 2015, but I started the year off with a bang...a whopping case of the flu. I don't recommend it to anyone. Today was the first day that I have felt almost as good as new...,not quite, but almost.
I sense many changes coming our way in the new year. I cannot put my finger on just what they might be, but there is a foreboding in the air deep inside of me and I have spent a good part of this day in tears. Letting go does that to me. Whether it is letting go of a child who is moving on in their life or letting go of a year that, for the most part, has been good to me...it is all the same. I like "sameness." I like reaching a goal and then staying there.
But, because life is ever changing and we grow with the changes, move on I must; and I must put my trust in the Lord and know that His plans for me and my life are the best plans. I cannot be so much ingrained in the world that I spend my life "leaning (upon my) own understanding" and so little time in "trust(ing) in the Lord." And so, having said all of that, I am laying down a foundation for my goals for the New Year.
Let me smile more, judge less; show gratitude more, and do less grumbling; spend more time with my family, and less time with my obsessions; and let me find joy wherever it can be found and let the old hurts that destroy be swept away.
I have turned over seventy-five December calendar pages to reveal a new January. I have seen many winters, many springs, many summers and many falls...and I pray that I have many more Decembers left for me to sneak a peek into the coming January and see the hopes for the future.
God bless us one and all as we move forward into a new year.
